Process...

I thought I better write something about process. The previous post was written a year ago... I was rite in the middle of my medical stuff and emotional stuff.
Alot can happen in a year. I have my ups and downs, I have my dark periods, but I also now have a support system, something that I learned was important to have.
The darkness isn't soo dark anymore, I have 3 lil kids that brighten up my day, (not mine my sisters), and their unconditional love is healing, and they prolly don't even know it.
Remember the onion thing, where we all have layers. My layers are pretty thick, but I know that I have lots of people praying for me, and one day the layers will come up. And how do the layers come off? By learning to trust again. Trust is a huge thing, and that inself is a process. Start trusting with the little things.
And in time I will be able to trust again. Stuff happens that breaks our ability to trust, but allow healing to happen, then it can be rebuilt. Allowing it to happen...see the cycle??? thats the cycle i am in rite now, and I have to break it. I will one day, hopefully soon.
Well, i have to go. I acutally am going to go to church. In hopes that my thickness of layers begin to thaw or thin out. And to get a hug from Sandy and Kathleen and Deb. they give the best hugs. Chow for now!
Marebear